Lucky to be Broken

"People can overcome hurt through overflowing love"

I was asked before if I would rather be broke or be heartbroken. Without thinking, I'd always choose the former. I'd rather be penniless than be dejected. I'd rather ran out of resources for gimik nights and travels than experience a heartache. But you see, I'm proud of my heart. It's been played, stabbed, cheated, burned, judged and broken by a handful of guys (yes, not just one, not two, but three guys in my entire life) but somehow it still works. I was one of the lucky ones who fell for the wrong person. Yes. I consider myself still lucky. I've experienced it all, well, maybe not all. But I had my fair share of despondent and desperate times -- those that earned me the right to be called "heart broken". I was still lucky that I survived and it never made me bitter nor cynical about love. It just made me stronger just like what people say, 'What doesn't kill you, makes me wanna kill others stronger." My heart may not be flawless but it is still capable of loving and it is WISER.

I wouldn't have that positive thought about being heartbroken if not for the people who helped me through it. I may be un-loved by one person, but I'm more than thankful because I'm loved by many - I'm loved by my family and friends. Not the romantic kind of love that I really want to, but it is still love.

The last time I had my heart broken, I was extremely shattered. It was as if it's my first time to experience that kind of pain. Ironic right? It was my third major heartache and yet I cried like it was my first. Don't ask what I did to get over it. It was the same cycle like what happened during the first and the second. But one thing that I'm more than willing to share is that because of it, I felt overflowing love -- Love from my friends who always check me out if I'm okay, even though they don't know the reason behind my 'broken-heartedness', friends who make time to be with me whenever I just feel like hanging out just to cry my heart out, friends who never asked questions but just understand what I'm going through, and friends who give me lots of hugs when I feel exhausted from crying.

I am very much thankful to the Big Guy above for making me experience heartaches. And I'm more than thankful for the love that I've received and I'm receiving. It made me forget the pain I went through and it made me a more loving and compassionate person.

See things with a forgiving heart not with a judgmental mind.