Love Letter

This would be my second 'love letter' I'd be giving you (virtually, of course, the first one I hope you're still keeping it hehe!). I tried so hard to put into words what I've been feeling for you for the past 100 days - Congratulations to us, we're on our 100th day as couple! Amazing isn't it? And it feels like more than that.

Baby, I think I wasn't really blessed with good writing and speaking skills like you do but I hope you'd be able to appreciate this because this was the least thing I could do -- to tell the world how much I love you. This letter is a dire attempt to put into words a handful of the million reasons you make me feel blessed.

Ready to hear me out?

This is my letter...

To the guy who calls me Gelli ever since I-don't-know-when. You never fail to make my nose cringe whenever I receive 'Gelli' texts from you. You know I won't reply to your text because in the first place, I'm not Gelli. I'm Patty. You even have the guts to tell me 'Kamukha mo kaya si Gelli de Belen'. You know I'm annoyed at you then because I'm thinking of Janice de Belen. Hahaha! Sorry namaaan. Kala ko iisa lang sila.

To the guy who seldom goes online but whenever he does, he never fails to surprise me by posting on my facebook wall with I love you's and sweet nothings. Nevermind that you’ve been labeled by my friends ‘malandi’ and nevermind I’ve been teased more ‘na naglalandian tayo’ online. You know I'd force you to go online just to read this.

To the guy who's been my best friend eversince. I remember last March when out-of-the-blue I received a text from you asking how I was. I said I’m not okay and I wanted someone to talk to. You asked me if I want to meet you the next day so I can share what troubles me. Remember I cancelled it to the last minute? I texted you at 5am to tell you that we should meet some other time (I’m also not sure then if you are the best person I can turn to). Turned out, you weren't able to read my text. You called me at 6:30am telling me that you’re already at our meeting place. Panic-stricken, you offered that you’d just go at a place near our house so that my travel time will be lessened. Seriously, I was so touched with the gesture. We ended up hanging out at UP Diliman where you first saw me cry. I can still remember your reaction. You wiped my tears while trying your best to make me laugh by asking me, “Gwapo ba yang iniiyakan mo? Kung hindi, tumigil ka na dyan” I didn't laughed at your joke then but thank you so much for listening to my problems. Thank you for being there during my lowest point. I think that’s the time when I told myself that you are a friend for keeps.

To the guy who brings me to  teddy bear stores. Thank you for those random sweet actions. You’d always bring me to those stores and let me choose anything that I want and when I asked you before why you’re doing that, you’d just say ‘Wala lang. Iyakin ka kasi eh. Bilhan kita nyan para may ma-hug ka’. You never fail to melt my heart then by your sweetness and thoughtfulness.

To the guy who gives me looooong hugs just because he knows I love hugs more than kisses. Thank you for those. I feel so warm inside whenever you give me one long hug after a tiring day.

To the guy who knows all my dark secrets, my past and my skeletons in my closet. Thank you for never holding it against me. Thank you for not judging me. Thank you for loving me not only because of but also despite of.

To the guy who chooses to see my best side eventhough he’s seen my worst days. Thank you for being patient with me whenever I’m having tantrums, or whenever I’m being annoying and stubborn. Thank you for understanding that girls have a once in a month right to be grumpy. LOL. Rest assured that it will only last for days.

To the guy who didn't freak out when out of the blue, I cried on our first ‘real’ date because he brought me to Kopi Roti at Katipunan. Thank you for understanding me (and my sudden mood swings) and for lending me your ears and shoulder to cry on.

To the guy who’d ask me after the Kopi Roti incident where I want to go because he doesn't want to bring me to places that will remind me of the ‘other guy’. You’d constantly tease me ‘Baka umiyak ka na naman eh’ and I’ll hit you really really hard. You never fail to make fun of my being a cry baby. But I want to thank you for being so sensitive and caring. 

To the guy who has the same principle as someone I know. Thank you for accepting me and seeing my worth ‘more than that’. I remember telling you the reason why the ‘other guy’ left me and then the first word that you blurted out was ‘So?’ I told you, ‘Eh diba yun din yung belief mo?” Then you answered me, without batting an eyelash, ‘Oonga, ganun nga din belief ko. Pero para sakin lang yun. Iniimpose ko lang sa sarili ko yun. I’m not requiring my partner to be like that. May iba ka pang qualities far more important than that.’ When you told me that, I vow to myself that I won’t make a mistake of letting you slip away. You’re a keeper. Thank you for compromising and for seeing my real worth.

To the guy who would tell me before that if I still love the ‘other guy’, you’d be willing to give me up for me to be happy. Thank you for the unconditional love you showed me.

To the guy who never pressured me into having a relationship with him because he knows I’m not over with my past heartache. Though, there were times that I’d push you away because I’m afraid I might fall again. Thank you for your patience and for never losing hope on ‘us’. Thank you for allowing me to heal on my own. You've given me enough space and time to decide things for myself -- always telling me to follow my heart but you're never too far enough whenever I'm on the verge of breaking down. I’m glad you waited for me and I’m glad I took the risk – and so far, it’s the best decision I've ever made.

To the guy who teases me that I had a crush on him on his first day at Toastmasters. Excuse me, if I had a crush on you then, I wouldn't have asked ‘Taga san ka?’ *in a flirty tone like you always re-enact* I would have asked for your name instead if I had a thing on you, okay? Haha!

To the guy who always offer me a ride whenever we have Toastmasters meeting. Sabi na nga ba eh, pumaparaan! Haha! Anyway, thank you for being generous in offering me a ride whenever Jacques won’t be around. That’s the start of our friendship, remember?

To the guy who loves to pressure me into delivering my speeches at Toastmasters. Thank you for always believing in my capabilities. Thank you for always being supportive whenever I feel so jittery before I make my speech. You are always the first one to clap or to laugh at my jokes. I appreciate that so much. Thank you for being my number one fan.

To the guy I had a crush on when I saw him wore long sleeves and a tie during the Toastmasters contest (See? That's the only time I had a crush on you. ‘Wag feeling. Nung March lang kita nagging crush haha!) You are soooo handsome whenever you wear that kind of outfit. I remember the time you surprised me by going to our office. You just had your interview then you decided to drop by my office. I remember my thought bubble then when I saw you from afar, ‘Shet. Ang gwapo naman ng boyfriend ko.’ To this day, whenever we’re going out on a date (or pag may kasalanan ka haha!), you always wear long sleeves and tie. You now know my weakness. Lol.

To the guy who made an effort to go to Valenzuela right after his work (his work ends at 5am) at Quezon City just to accompany me to Makati (then afterwards, go home at Bulacan). Thank you for really making an E-F-F-O-R-T. I know you haven’t had a sleep but you still insist on bringing me to work and my officemates (especially my boss) would be amazed by the effort you’re showing me.

To the guy who is a real gentleman. Thank you for opening the car door for me, for pulling the chair for me, for being on the ‘danger’ side whenever we cross the street. I know you’re such a real gentleman because you don't only do those things for me, you also do that to others. Thank you for being a living proof that  chivalry is not dead.

To the guy who tells me pick up lines. Never mind that your lines are uber-corny. They still make my heart skip a beat whenever you’d throw those lines.

To the guy who infuriates me when he sleeps on me while we’re texting. You are such a sleepy-head! I’ll never forget the time when we’re talking about our upcoming ‘trip’ and then you fell asleep. I was so frustrated at you then. But you made up to me by paying me a surprise visit at Valenzuela the next day. I know you have a company outing to go to at that time and yet you made time to see me even if it’s just for an hour. You really know what to do when I’m annoyed. Haha just seeing you made all my frustrations gone.

To the guy who loves teasing my skin color. Yeah right, I must admit, your skin is fairer than mine. But I really wouldn't care less because I know you’re a fan of morena beauties. Mas hot kami diba? *wink*

To the guy who doesn’t only laugh with me but also laughs at me especially during my sabaw moments. I know that you are really comfortable with me because you are not afraid to laugh at me and you know how much I love to see you laugh and smile.

To the guy who has so many girl fans (which sometimes irritate me haha!). I've already told you a hundred of times that you are really good looking and you don’t have to ‘carry your own chair’ okay? I always tell you ‘Ang gwapo mo’ then you’ll just respond ‘thank you’ in a conceitedly cute way. Haha! I still love you for that. To those girls who are planning to steal you from me, ha! Humanda sila! Kidding aside, it made me so proud whenever girls swoon at your Facebook wall and flirt with you shamelessly. But as always, you assured me that no one can take you away from me (Take the case when you volunteer to block someone because that girl is getting me into my nerves haha!). You know I'm not really the jealous type but you know when those girls are going overboard.

To the guy who is subtly seloso. I know you don’t show much that you’re also jealous of other guys because you’re very secure and confident (which I really admire). But I also know that deep inside, you can be seloso at times. Take the case when I told you someone was asking how I was. You joked me that you’ll be my spokesperson – you’d answer the message if it’s from a guy and if it’s a girl who’s asking how I am, you’d tell me ‘Kaya mo na sagutin yan.’ You know you don't have to lie to me if you're jealous because I can already read you like an open book.

To the guy who always hold my hand (even when he is driving). I always feel safe and secure whenever you hold my hand. That sweet gesture would always make me smile at you (that’s the reason why you always catch me staring at you). You always make me feel overwhelmed with your love.

To the guy who scratches his head whenever I’d tell him that I would introduce him to my friends not because he doesn’t want to be introduced. But he’d always mix up names of my friends and he’d tell me, ‘Ikaw na kasi ang maraming kaibigan. Nakakalito.’ You just don't know how much I'm proud to introduce to my friends the reason of my happiness.

To the guy who loves to make fun of me. You’d always taunt me because you know I never get pikon at you. You make sure that you’d tease me whenever you're driving so I won’t get to tickle your belly. Haha! You’ll always tell me, “Baby, mababangga tayo pag kiniliti mo ko ngayon”. So much for being mautak grabe.

To the guy who is so smart. I remember the time I was subtly bragging that I placed second in the Civil Service Exam. You told me, 'Civil Service baby? Di ko na kelangan nun. Di ba nagtatake lang nun yung mga di cum laude nung grumaduate?' And I asked you, 'Bakit? Cum laude ka ba nung grumaduate ka??' You just smiled at me and said 'Well..'. Pffft. Okay you won. You already!

To the guy who showers me with compliments and loving words. Thank you for giving those compliments during my down and zombie moments. I’d tell you I look like a zombie (with eyebags and stress marks and all) but then you’d still say I look great. I know that there isn't a hint of sarcasm whenever you say that because you’re so genuinely honest (sometimes even brutally honest) – I know you’d tell me straight to my face if I really do look like a zombie. Thank you for telling me that I'm still beautiful despite smudged mascara, puffy eyes and red nose.

To the guy who never fails to text me with ‘Good mornings’, ‘Have your lunch na’ and ‘Good nights’. Thank you for always making me feel your presence whenever we’re apart. 

To the guy who I can never ‘out-height’ even if I’m wearing my 4-inch heels. You’d tease me whenever I wear my heels ‘Ang tangkad ha’ and whenever I’m on my flats, ‘Ang liit mo baby. Eto tunay mong height.’

To the guy who always acts surprised whenever I suddenly remembered I have to tell him something. You always tell me how excited and animated I am whenever I tell you stories. Thank you for putting up with my endless rants and for giving your opinions whenever I need one.

To the guy who spoils me. Don't do that often, masasanay ako, sige ka. Hehe!

To the guy who waits for me finish my class. You just don't know how much happy I am to see you at RCBC right after my 9pm class. Just seeing you takes all my stress away.

To the guy who is God-centered and faithful. Thank you for praying with me before eating. Even in fancy restos, you’d always remind me that we pray together before we devour our foods. I want to thank you for hearing mass with me, praying with me and for praying for me. I know God will continue to bless us and our relationship.

To the guy who includes me in his future plans. You always make my heart melt whenever you’d talk about our future together. You’d ask me if I want a house like this or that, how many kids I would want to have someday and the like. I remember you telling me, “Alam ko magiging matalino anak natin. Mana sayo eh. Tapos ang ganda nun. Sakin makukuha yung looks eh.” Very very funny of you! Haha! So sayo lang talaga ang looks?!

To the guy I won’t mind waiting whenever he’ll work overtime. You know I’m being supportive of you especially on your new job. You just don’t know how much I’m proud of you! I’ll never get tired of waiting for you just to give you your favorite brownies after a day’s work.

To the guy who deserves so much love in the world. You’d always tell me that you’re overwhelmed with my love whenever I do stuff for you. Haha it’s okay baby. You deserved to be loved like that.

To the guy who made me believe in love again when I'm on the verge on losing hope on it. Thank you for showing me that not all guys are jerks. Thank you for making me cry tears of joy - always. Thank you for the love and respect you've been showing me. You are really a living proof that God blessed me so much. Thank you for making me feel I'm the luckiest girl on earth. Thank you for the three months full of love -- three months, forever to go. Just because, I believe in forever with you.

I love you so much and I'll never get tired of showing that to you.

Sorry, I Just Can't Get Over It

Below is the full (and better) version of the UP Pep Squad routine. Wow I still have goosebumps after watching it for the third time. Ang astiiiiiig talaga! It's actually my dream to join the squad back then but I chickened out. Sayang. Haha I was a cheerdancer when I was in elementary and high school and now I think I lost the talent. Oh well. 

Last year, I posed with a member of the pep squad and feeling ko bagay sakin ang blonde (hahaha feeling ko lang). This time, I don't think I'd be able to carry a shaved head 'do. Oooopsie, huling huli. Look what I'm holding - an Ateneo balloon. Hihihi!

Congratulations UP Pep Squad! You are the best! #schoolpride

Nowhere to go but UP!:)

Today, I wasn't able to watch the UAAP Cheerdance competition live. For the past six years or so, I was lucky enough to watch it live considering the scarcity of tickets (Yeaaaah. I don't know why but it's easier to find true love than to find a UAAP cheerdance ticket. Chos! Hehe!) I wasn't able to watch because I chose to be green today rather than be maroon -- I was at De La Salle... to study!!! I feel really really bad. Studying already makes me feel really really bad, so you can just imagine how worst I felt because while I'm studying, my friends were all at MOA arena to cheer for our alma mater!

It's a different feeling when you're at the venue to cheer for your university - waaaay waaaay different than when you watch the video at home on Youtube. Nevertheless, I feel so proud to be a graduate of the University of the Philippines. I'll always and forever will be maroon by blood.



I had goosebumps after watching the video. My heart stopped when the dancer fell at the end of the routine. But oh well, I don't think that's enough to bring them down -- because there's no way to go but UP!!!! Hahaha ang sabaw lang. Sa UP, pag may sablay, tagumpay (Now I know why.. Hehe!)

While studying, I was also texting Vlad for updates and checking my Facebook newsfeed for faster updates. Here's how my conversation with Vlad went:

Me: Sis! May results na? Panalo na tayo?
Vlad: Wala pa sis. Kinakabahan nga kami kasi bumagsak pyramid ng UP sa huli (Actually I knew this already even before I read Vlad's text message because of Facebook. See how reliable FB is? Haha!)
Me: Ah ganun. Balita ko maganda raw yung sa FEU ah. (Actually panicking because boyfie and I made a bet on who's going to be the champion. He's from FEU. Hahaha!)
Vlad: Maganda nga sa FEU. Pero mahirap ginawa ng UP. Yun lang laban nila. Hahahaha!
Me: And how about La Salle? Maganda ba?
Vlad: Sis! kawawa na yung school natin! Walang nagpunta sa Ateneo masyado. Hahaha! Maganda sa La Salle. Laking improvement (Vlad and I are both Ateneo by heart hence we claim it's our school. Haha!)
Me: Huh? Sis. I'd rather be green than be blue. Ano pinagsasabi mo dyan?! Haha Go La Salle!
Vlad: Leche ka talaga! blue ang heart natin!! Haha
Me: Okay. Sige na nga. Blue ang heart ko pero green ang utak ko. Joke! Hahaha nakakainis nandito ko sa lib ngayon tas may naririnig akong tv. Cheerdance pinapanood nila! Eh kaya lang ang hina so di ko alam kung sino na nanalo. Alam ko lang nanalo na NU.
Vlad: Hahahaha! So nageavesdrop ka. Grabe ka! Nagbago ka na. You're so studious na. hahaha!
Me: Matagal na kong eavesdropper. Haha! Of course. Matagal na kaya akong studious. Wahaha!
Vlad: Ayan naaa. We won!!!
Me: You won?!?!?!?! Wohooo
Vlad: Yaaaah! La Salle didn't ehh. Hahahahaha
Me: Aww. That's so sad. Di bale, we'll make bawi na lang sa basketball. Yahknow. Hahaha
Vlad: Graaaabe. Ang posh mo na. Hahahaha

Proud to be an ISKA!:D Go UP! I promise to watch the cheerdance live next year.

I Heart UP!:)

I think I've already mastered the art of forgiving. Good job me. :)

You never fail to make your presence noticed even in my readings! :))

Dear boyfie,

You won't be able to read this (I'm assured of that because you really seldom go online). Nevertheless, I can feel your presence even in my readings!!! I'm on sick leave today (It's because of you. You made me miss you so much lol) and because I was so bored at home, I decided to do some studying. I opened our Management Principles yahoo group to find this handout uploaded by my Professor. The first thing I noticed? Your name. Now, I'm distracted. Joke! Hahaha! I miss you so much! Hope to see you soon. 

For now, I shall study first and try hard to get well really really soon because you won't allow me to see you unless I'm not sick anymore. Pfft. 

Happy 3rd Mensiversary!:)

We're on our third!!! Too bad we can't celebrate it today because I have class. NO. He's in Bacolod...for work. I can't wait to see him next week though.

I love you Mr. Evangelista!

* pictures taken when we we're still friends, during our first and second month together. We'll make up for three! Hehehe:)

Lucky to be Broken

"People can overcome hurt through overflowing love"

I was asked before if I would rather be broke or be heartbroken. Without thinking, I'd always choose the former. I'd rather be penniless than be dejected. I'd rather ran out of resources for gimik nights and travels than experience a heartache. But you see, I'm proud of my heart. It's been played, stabbed, cheated, burned, judged and broken by a handful of guys (yes, not just one, not two, but three guys in my entire life) but somehow it still works. I was one of the lucky ones who fell for the wrong person. Yes. I consider myself still lucky. I've experienced it all, well, maybe not all. But I had my fair share of despondent and desperate times -- those that earned me the right to be called "heart broken". I was still lucky that I survived and it never made me bitter nor cynical about love. It just made me stronger just like what people say, 'What doesn't kill you, makes me wanna kill others stronger." My heart may not be flawless but it is still capable of loving and it is WISER.

I wouldn't have that positive thought about being heartbroken if not for the people who helped me through it. I may be un-loved by one person, but I'm more than thankful because I'm loved by many - I'm loved by my family and friends. Not the romantic kind of love that I really want to, but it is still love.

The last time I had my heart broken, I was extremely shattered. It was as if it's my first time to experience that kind of pain. Ironic right? It was my third major heartache and yet I cried like it was my first. Don't ask what I did to get over it. It was the same cycle like what happened during the first and the second. But one thing that I'm more than willing to share is that because of it, I felt overflowing love -- Love from my friends who always check me out if I'm okay, even though they don't know the reason behind my 'broken-heartedness', friends who make time to be with me whenever I just feel like hanging out just to cry my heart out, friends who never asked questions but just understand what I'm going through, and friends who give me lots of hugs when I feel exhausted from crying.

I am very much thankful to the Big Guy above for making me experience heartaches. And I'm more than thankful for the love that I've received and I'm receiving. It made me forget the pain I went through and it made me a more loving and compassionate person.

See things with a forgiving heart not with a judgmental mind.

I'm not cupid but I think the secret to a perfect and real relationship is the same with everything else... Dont lie to others and dont lie to yourself. Be real, stay real:)

Going Green :)

photo's courtesy of www.pinoyexchange.com

On Lover's Quarrel and Patching Up

"Fx na ko baby. Bati na tayo ha?"

That was the sweetest and most heart-warming text I've received from him last Tuesday to which I replied "Onaman baby. Bati na tayo. Di naman kita matitiis no. I love you!" We're having a "lover's quarrel" last week for some...well... shallow but not-really-that-shallow-to-be-ignored reason. Haha! Blame it on the monthly visitor or maybe I'm just being maarte a.k.a nagpapalambing lang. Hay girls. Lol.

My boyfriend and I seldom fight/argue/disagree about things. We've only fought uhmm...about two times. Two times in three months is not that bad. Hehe! I've been the most understanding, caring, and thoughtful girlfriend that I can be and he is the most understanding, caring, and thoughtful boyfriend too! Before, we'd ask each other 'Ano kaya pagaawayan natin baby?' But true enough, we'd never know until the situation is right infront of us. Nevertheless, there is also a good thing about fighting -- we learn a LOT from each other. He learns what pisses me off and vice versa. We learn how to compromise and we learn how to forgive --and forget. I remember one line he told me when we're patching things up. He said 'If you think we're not going to fight in the future, that would be unrealistic. We're still in the process of getting to know each other more. At least we learn from each other. Boring naman kung hindi tayo magaaway. Ano tayo, perfect?' Haha! He was right. No relationship is perfect. There are really times when couples fight and argue but then the most important thing is to learn how to listen and respect each other. Even though my blood level is at its highest point last week (lol), I always (and will always) try to hear what he has to say. My golden rule in relationships is that I should never EVER let a day pass without telling the person I love that I love him. Even though may konting kurot/pagtatampo pa last Monday, I made sure that before I went to sleep, I told him that I love him. Here's our conversation over text (I think he wouldn't really mind if I share some of it so that others may learn from us haha! Ganito talaga kami kasweet)

Marion: Sige baby, I know ako kelangan magcorrect. Pasensya ka na. Konti practice ko sa pagsasabi in advance. Mejo ang setup ko kasi eh nagsasabi naman ako pero minsan late na.
Me: Okay. Sige I'll sleep na. Just text me pag nakauwi ka na.
Marion: Ok baby. Sabay na tayo tomorrow. Megamall na ko. Txt kita pag nakauwi na ko. I love you.
Me: Ok. Ingat ka. Good night.

After thirty minutes,
Me: San ka na?
Marion: SM Fairview na baby. 20 minutes na lang house na.

After twenty minutes,
Marion: House na ko baby.
Me: Ok. Good. Sleep na ko. Good night.
Marion: Good night baby. Thanks for waiting for me. I love you.
Me: I love you too.
Marion: =)

Boy, that feels good... Telling him that I love him eventhough I still feel kind of bad and waiting for him to get home before I actually sleep. Yeah I can't sleep without knowing he's home safe.

So you see? I'm not really a monster girlfriend. Haha! I love my boyfriend too much that I wouldn't let my bad mood hinder in telling him how much I love him.

Come next day, it was like nothing happened. Back to our normal, happy selves. Oh looooove. :)

Haha this is funny!

But it does have a point.

Meet my future Groom

taken during my super friend Maan's wedding

I'm sooooooo inlove with this guy.

Going For 10!

I forgot to write about the evaluator's comments regarding my Speech number 9 because I'm just too excited to post the speech. Haha! I have to put it here so I won't forget the recommendations and suggestions given to me. I'll be delivering my 'Graduation Speech' for Toastmasters in two weeks time and I still have no topic in mind. Okay, I have ideas but my mind is too jumbled right now. I make great speeches when I cram them. (Pfft that doesn't sound good hehe). Think. Think. Think. I better graduate in Toastmasters before my grad school term starts (yiiiiiiiiiiiii this is it. it's final. I'm going to write a separate post about it later hehe). So, below are the comments from my evaluator:

1. In order to persuade people, you have to be likeable. You possess that quality. You are very likeable. The moment you stepped infront and started talking, the audience immediately got hooked with what you are saying. *turned red in embarrassment. I'm way toooo flattered to say anything but 'thank you' haha*

2. Also, in order to persuade people, you have to share yourself. You did a great job in sharing yourself. Few people will go infront and talk about her boyfriend and share their conversations. We had fun listening to those funny stories. You are naturally funny and I especially admire your humor and writing ability.

3. Since it's a persuasive speech, you have to have a call for action in the end. Also, veer away from the podium and use the stage. Next time, we'll volunteer you as a test speaker so you can practice talking infront of a LARGER crowd.  *oohh-oh. haha! yeah the thought of speaking infront of a larger crowd still scares me*

So there. I'm going for 10!!! :D This it.