You can actually read my mind

Throwback to July 2010: Never mistake my silence for weakness. Ever heard someone plan a murder out loud? Didn't think so. LOL. 

I've always been a transparent person. I seldom (or actually haven't) hide my feelings towards a person or to anything in particular. Whether I feel sad, happy, angry or stressed, it easily shows. I think it's a curse because I cannot, no matter how hard I try, pretend that I'm okay when I'm not. I don't know if it is because I have expressive eyes or I just don't like being pretentious. 

So one afternoon while having a discussion about a big project with my boss (and this project has been taking forever to actualize because of uhmm...nevermind. But to give a timeline on how 'forever' it has been, ever since I started working yun na ang ginagawa ko! Luh.), I wasn't able to hide how I feel towards it. I was explaining something to her when all of a sudden she said candidly, "Nakita ko yun. Nag-roroll ang eyes mo. Okay lang sakin yan pero pag nasa meeting tayo 'wag mo gagawin yan." She wasn't actually mad at me. But I just cannot hide that I feel really really frustrated on how things were going (plus I hate wasted efforts in all aspects of life lels). 

Okay, so my eyes have rolled 360 degrees. If I have to sum up how I really felt, baka gumulong na yung mata ko sa floor. It is involuntary I swear! Like I chose to let it behave that way. Nyahaha! Anyway, I think should try being less expressive. I'll practice how to do a poker face in front of a mirror.

So this fact makes me a bad liar. Because no matter what, it shows in my facial expressions the unearthed feelings I have. What I do is when a person asks me if I'm okay and I'm not -- I avoid looking at the person. On a sidenote, thank you for Facebook chat and Viber because if I have to lie about my feelings, it can be a good channel. Lol.

The good thing about this though is that when I'm extremely happy or excited, I don't need to say something. I have this automatic glow on my face. Gahhh. So when I'm inlove, halatang halata ako. Hahaha!