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#FEELING AWFUL

I've been in an awful mood for the past weeks and I can't figure out why -- maybe I'm so tired of either of the following: work, school, business, travelling to and from Valenzuela. This made me so grumpy and uninspired lately. I cannot be tired or else I'll feel terrible about everything and I tend to shut everything off. Hence, I have work backlogs and unfinished schoolwork. To somehow make myself happy, I decided to do one good deed everyday until Christmas hopefully forever. On my way home last night, I passed by an old lady beggar infront of 7-11 near our house. I normally don't give alms so I went on walking. But after few steps, I turned back, went inside 7-11 and bought food for the old lady. When I went out to give it to her, her smile was priceless. I didn't stay long to talk to her because I was in a hurry to go home. I should try doing small good deeds more often. It makes me genuinely happy and more appreciative. 

#BRIDAL SHOWERS

A month ago, I attended a real bridal shower. I attended bridal showers before but this one is real because we actually have a stripper in the house. Lol. I actually felt stressed and happy at the same time. I couldn't believe the act! Anyway, all of us except the bride-to-be kept on running around the room. Nagpulasan kami nung lumapit samin si kuya stripper. Hahaha! This one for the books. In a way I feel bad for the guy because we found out that he's a married man. Hay. Things people do just to earn money. NOTE TO SELF: Be more open minded and kind. On the sidenote, while the stripper went to change costumes, we were all giggling and we were asking each other, "Totoo ba yun? Nakatayo?? Bat anliiiiit??" HAHAHA. Lol. Below are some pictures from the bridal shower (Noted: some pictures are for our eyes only lol):

    

This reminds me of my conversations with friends on sex, sizes and what-nots related about sex. Yes, I'm typing the word S-E-X. Luh. Unfortunately for Filipinos, we brand someone when he/she knows a lot about sex as flirt, bitch, lascivious, carnalist, concupiscent and the like. It's something about our culture or should I say upbringing which makes it hard for us to talk about IT in a casual way. I'm not  too conservative neither too "modern" but I talk about sex with my friends. And when I talk about it, it doesn't actually mean that its something that I don't value much. Anyway, talking about it is a manifestation that I'm already getting old!!! We don't talk about it like immature grade schoolers talk about. We openly discuss about it because realistically speaking, it's part of life. And we don't normally agree on our thoughts about sex but what I love about my true friends is that they are all open minded. I really hate close minded people.

#FUNNY RANDOM CONVERSATIONS

I went out for a coffee date with my bestfriend since birth Grade 1 two Saturdays ago. We talked about the past, settling down and a lot more. We also talked about our crushes way back in elementary and our own definition of gwapo. She was telling me that good thing that I've finally found a good-looking guy. Haha! Here's an extension of our conversations:

The grass is always greener on the other side.

OR

The grass is greener where you water it.

If you are wondering if I'm mad at you and if I have to choose only between a Yes or a No... I realized it is a YES.

YES, I'M MAD AT YOU BECAUSE I SHOULD BE.

It's a realization that you should know as well.Got it?

my forever crush :)

Sometimes, I feel that I should stop forgiving people.
Oh well.


After one week of being locked in a hotel for our company strategy planning, finally I can shout...Happy happy Friday!!!

The Toastmasters Midyear Conference was held last Saturday but I wasn't able to join because I have an important matter to do on that day. But I was really surprised when one of my favorite picture with boyfie was featured in the souvenir program. Yay! Here's the soft copy of the souvenir program :)

Boyfie calls me:
M: Baby, nandun yung picture natin sa souv prog ng TM.
Me: Ah talaga? Kumuha ka ng copy?
M: Yup. May soft copy uploaded in the TM site.
Me: Yeah, I saw Third posted the link. Matignan nga.
M: Gusto ko nga ipost sa wall ko eh. Kaya lang brownout samin.
Me: Huh? Eh di mag flashlight ka.
M: Huh? Eh di ko maopen yung laptop kasi lowbatt na.
Me: Ahhh. Wall. As in FB wall. Hahaha! Kala ko naman ipopost mo yung souvenir program sa pader ng room mo. Nyahaha!
M: Eeeew baby. You're so old school. Pader talaga naisip.
Me: Malay ko ba na ikaw yung tipong nagpopost ng posters sa pader. Parang high school lang.
M: Eeeew old school. Hahaha!

Love Appropriately

Learn to love appropriately.

You need to use your head and test your feelings so that your love is sincere and intelligent. Not sentimental gush.

Phil 1:9-10

You can actually read my mind

Throwback to July 2010: Never mistake my silence for weakness. Ever heard someone plan a murder out loud? Didn't think so. LOL. 

I've always been a transparent person. I seldom (or actually haven't) hide my feelings towards a person or to anything in particular. Whether I feel sad, happy, angry or stressed, it easily shows. I think it's a curse because I cannot, no matter how hard I try, pretend that I'm okay when I'm not. I don't know if it is because I have expressive eyes or I just don't like being pretentious. 

So one afternoon while having a discussion about a big project with my boss (and this project has been taking forever to actualize because of uhmm...nevermind. But to give a timeline on how 'forever' it has been, ever since I started working yun na ang ginagawa ko! Luh.), I wasn't able to hide how I feel towards it. I was explaining something to her when all of a sudden she said candidly, "Nakita ko yun. Nag-roroll ang eyes mo. Okay lang sakin yan pero pag nasa meeting tayo 'wag mo gagawin yan." She wasn't actually mad at me. But I just cannot hide that I feel really really frustrated on how things were going (plus I hate wasted efforts in all aspects of life lels). 

Okay, so my eyes have rolled 360 degrees. If I have to sum up how I really felt, baka gumulong na yung mata ko sa floor. It is involuntary I swear! Like I chose to let it behave that way. Nyahaha! Anyway, I think should try being less expressive. I'll practice how to do a poker face in front of a mirror.

So this fact makes me a bad liar. Because no matter what, it shows in my facial expressions the unearthed feelings I have. What I do is when a person asks me if I'm okay and I'm not -- I avoid looking at the person. On a sidenote, thank you for Facebook chat and Viber because if I have to lie about my feelings, it can be a good channel. Lol.

The good thing about this though is that when I'm extremely happy or excited, I don't need to say something. I have this automatic glow on my face. Gahhh. So when I'm inlove, halatang halata ako. Hahaha! 

Because weekend will be over soon, I just wanted to say:

I had a really really wonderful weekend :) Yay!!! :) :) :) Looking forward to an even greater week ahead.

Today, I realized that being nice coupled with a smile can go a long way -- beyond cultural and language barriers. Although, being pretty is a good advantage. LOLJK. (half-meant). I think I should smile a lot more often -- its makes people wonder what I'm up to.

Moving on from a broken puso

Last Saturday, my college friends and I watched the UAAP Cheerdance competition at MOA Arena. I've been regularly watching the competition since I started studying at UP and eventhough I'm already an alumnus of the university, I never fail to watch it live (except for last year). I know it is hard to get tickets for that event and I freakin' hate scalpers! Ugh. When we are outside of MOA last Saturday, a lot of scalpers were there tricking hopeless students to buying their tickets. I overheard someone selling his Gen Ad ticket for 1,500!!! Grabe. I'm thankful I have a friend from UP Pep Squad who is our source of tickets every year. Hihi. 

Anyway, UP was the first to perform. And like every first performer, it sets the bar for the other performers. UP did set a high bar. When I actually learned a week ago that UP will perform first, I have doubts. Not that I don't believe in UP Pep but my friend Lovely said, "Wala pang nanalo na unang nagperform" which could be true. But I know UP will negate that belief. When I saw them perform, I knew they will win. I just don't think they deserved to be the 2nd runner up. Their performance was spectacular. I had goosebumps specially during the last part when they were forming the heart pyramid with UP Naming Mahal as the background music. Yay. I'm just so proud! 

(photo not mine): This is AMAAAZIIIIIING!

I couldn't just believe they ranked third (Can I say that again?) Haha! We were all confident they're going to be the champion. But we were all brokenhearted to the turn of events. Oh well. Life's like that. You win some, you lose some.

So where do broken hearts go? To bed. Lol.

Anyway, speaking of broken hearts, I had a friend who broke up with his guy. It should be a "normal" breakup but then the girl is about to take her bar exam this November. Now, I could just imagine the stress and depression she's currently facing. As her friend, all I can do is give some advice but it's really up to her on how she can help herself. I've been in the same situation before and I know that even I received a lot of advice from my friends such as "Marami pang iba dyan", "May mas ok pa", "In God's time magiging okay ka", "Kala mo lang di ka makaka-move on" -- it's really up to me to believe them and move on... or stay stuck forever. I'm actually guilty of not believing their pieces of advice and I do my own way -- I indulged in self-pity which is WRONG. After four times of brokenheartedness, I now firmly believed in this: Don't spend time with people who made you feel like less than you are. 

As a person, you should always know your worth. People you love will, one way or another, make you cry, you just have to know who's worth your tears. God will allow you to lose some because He always have better plans for you... you just have to learn to let go.

Sidenote: This is what my friend Bert told me, "Kelangan natin iparealize sakanya na tayo nag let go tayo dati sa mga kashungahan natin. tapos after that naging mas okay tayo sa buhay". Indeed. Hahaha! Kashungahan talaga the term. Lol.