When you get hurt often, it takes a lot to believe again.

Sabaw! :))

I'm torn between two gwapos. Hahaha!:)) Ang haba ng hair ko. Oh no.*

*Really, God has a weird and cool sense of humor. :p

It will never be tiring to make someone feel loved, what becomes tiring is waiting to get some love back in return.

I Hate Being Sick!

I'm so sick. Yikes. Probably it's because I've been sleeping only for three hours for the past few weeks. Oh Noooo. I need to get well soon.

Yey! I Knew It!:) I'm Gaining Something!

On this day of your life, Patricia Marie, we believe God wants you to know ... that the great advantage of having nothing is that everything becomes a gain.

Losing everything is at the same time the scariest, as well as the most liberating experience you can have. When you have something, - anything, you've got to protect it from disappearing. And so worry becomes a resident in your heart. When you've got nothing, your heart overflows with gratitude for every offering you receive.

Hmm..Am I Set? :p

;)

Now tell me, how can I not fall?

Uh-oh.

Even God has a weird sense of humor. :D

I'm Not For Nor Against Lady Gaga too!:)

I saw this post by Joseph Bonifacio... I do not personally know the blogger but I definitely agree on his stand..."Let He Who Has Not Sinned Cast The First Stone"...I am not for Lady Gaga nor against her...I'm not even watching the concert (concert tickets are so expensive haha!)  ...but making such a fuss over her concert is just sensationalizing her even more..(and i think it's safe for me to say that sensationalizing Lady Gaga is the probably the LAST thing on their agenda) and in my opinion, good for those who protest on the streets to stop the concert for reasons of condemning the singer to be allegedly "satanic" or whatnot...but be sure you guys have nothing to be condemned for too...It's true that we must be careful in judging people because all of us are sinners too. How can we honestly condemn one act of sin while guilty of another ourselves? :) And in the end, there's really something wrong with our faith if we end up hating people. 


"If all the prayers & all the grace & all the values of a Catholic child can be undone by ONE concert then how weakly it must've been taught."

Some clarifications to start:

I’m not saying it’s wrong to protest her. I’m just relating why I’m not doing that.

I don’t think it’s a harmless concert either. I’m aware of much of the message of her music and life and I don’t think it’s eternally beneficial.

I am not talking about parents who don’t allow their children to watch it. God has given parents the authority to raise their children. As far as I’m concerned, if you eat their food, drink their water, use their internet, order their maids around, then they get to call the shots. If you don’t want that life, go live on your own and make your own rules. (Honestly, there are tons of less privileged people who would love that kind of life.)

I’m only talking about protesting the upcoming concert and why I’m not doing that.

How dare you not pander to my every whim! What gives you the right, aside from you clothe me, feed me, shelter me, and provide for my education?!

 1. It’s after the fact.

I don’t buy this talk of Lady Gaga’s concert bringing a tide of filth and sin into our country. First of all, it’s not like the songs and their messages haven’t made it here already. So that’s not the concert alone. Secondly, our country is plenty sinful on its own without her concert. Is the concert really going to cause people to morph into rampant sinners?

Here’s a question: Is Lady Gaga’s popularity causing people to live a certain way? Or is she popular because people are already living a certain way? In other words, her music has an audience partially because it hits the core sinfulness of people who want to reject God and His Kingdom. (Some people just like the sound of repeating syllables.) A concert didn’t cause that, and stopping a concert won’t fix it. We need something else.

 2. It’s inconsistent.

Does Lady Gaga’s music contain elements that do not honor God the way He must be honored? Yes. Definitely. But then again, what doesn’t? Why are we protesting this concert in particular?

Did we protest Katy Perry when she kissed a girl and liked it? Did we protest Beyonce with her music and movements? Were the Black Eyed Peas paragons of virtue? Why didn’t they draw this much flak?

For that matter, where were these protests when the Spice Girls came and sang Two Become One? (Or did we think that was within the confines of marriage? Heads up, the Backstreet Boys are coming in June to tell people to Get Down.) And what about Frank Sinatra who insists “I Did It My Way?” Are we gonna strike that off our list too?

We’re using a standard that’s different from God’s Word, the Bible, if we act inconsistently like this. It’s like there are “okay” sins and there are “protest-worthy” sins. Where do we draw the line?

Too often, we draw the line where it doesn’t exclude us. But anyone different from us, anyone who makes us uncomfortable, anyone who is “obviously a sinner,” those people have to be outside the line.

Where do we draw the line? And whose call is it?

People notice this double standard too. The mayor of Pasay said he’d allow the concert to continue, but he asked her to refrain from anything blasphemous or morally offensive. Someone commented on the internet asking what about all of the motels and prostitution that proliferate the area. And why stop at sex? What about corruption, laziness, etc.? That’s sin too, right?

How can we honestly condemn one act of sin while guilty of another ourselves? Once, when Jesus was preaching, people brought a sinful woman before him. Some religious people had tricked her and caught her in the act of adultery. Like any good lynch mob, this was lopsided from the beginning – the man was noticeably absent. Two people were in sin, the man was ignored, and they all condemned her.

Jesus, after writing in the dirt said, “Let him who has no sin cast the first stone.” In other words, let the ones who have not made any sin at all, be the first to condemn. In doing this, Jesus was not saying what she did was okay. He did correct her later on.

But He was also pointing out that sin is sin, no matter what sin it is. We must be careful what judgment you insist on others, because we bring the axe down on our own necks as well. None of us are sinless, so none of us can condemn each other. After he said this, he started writing on the dirt again, as each of the accusers dropped their case and walked away. He extended his hand to her, said He didn’t condemn her, and told her to sin no more. (You can’t miss that last part.)

no different from you and me

The story shows that while none of the people could condemn her, there is one sinless person though. And that person WILL judge. And that’s Jesus Himself. The Bible says, He will return to judge every action, word, thought, and motive. At the end of our lives, we all will stand before Him and give an account. Lady Gaga will. So will the Pope. So will you. And we would all fail.

But because He loves us, Jesus died the punishment we should have died. He took away the rottenness of all our sin – the sin in Lady Gaga’s music and the sin in your heart when you couldn’t forgive someone – all of it, when He died on the Cross for us. And to those who believe Him, He gives new life. And that’s the only dividing line between who’s in and who’s out. And anyone who believes will be in. Even Lady Gaga.

So here’s what we can do instead – we can make disciples. We can tell people about Jesus, so that they’ll believe. Then we teach them to follow Him so that they’ll do the same. Incidentally, that’s the very thing Jesus told us to keep busy with. (Matthew 28:18-20)

In the words of my friend, Ryan, when asked about what he was doing about the upcoming Lady Gaga concert, “I’m gonna do what we’ve always been doing. Make disciples.” 

Note to self:

Remember ang dami ko na napagdaanan na complicated na relationships, so this time, I'll make this work out.

I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck. ;)

Happy happy Saturday!:) Can't wait for later.:)

Relationships are getting complicated these days. Bat dati naman walang gray area? Hmmm...

I'm Getting Sporty!:)

or feeling sporty... Haha! Just finished playing badminton with my officemates. Now, my body hurts. >.<

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.”

― Bob Marley

@.@

Me: Naiiyak pa rin ako...
Nelsy: Alam ko na! Ibitin mo na lang yung sarili mo patiwarik.
Me: Sige. Try ko one time.
Nelsy: Diba ganun yun? Para di tumulo yung luha. Kelangan ibaligtad mo sarili mo.

"It's hard. But I'm trying to get a love one out of my head and the fishhooks out of my heart"

There's a phrase here that I like :) Guess.

On this day of your life, Patricia Marie, we believe God wants you to know ... that shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow.

There is no need for you to go it alone. There are people who love you, and who are ready to give you much needed support. There are even more, - way more than you can possibly imagine, people who CAN love you if you give them a chance. Make 'share joy, half the sorrow' your motto for today.

If happy ever after did exist...

I would still be holding you like this...


*Ooooh I can't stop singing this song*

Usapang Lasing :))

Me: Flor, pag ba nag boyfriend na ko, kelangan ko sabihin kay Guy 1?
Flor: Bakit? magboboyfriend ka na? Sasagutin mo na si Guy 2?
Me: Hindi. Naisip ko lang.
Flor: Ayyy feeling ko malulungkot ng sobra si Guy 1. Kawawa naman yung manok ko.
Me: Haha! Lagi mo siyang binabara pero manok mo pala siya. De, naisip ko lang naman. Di pa naman ako magboboyfriend. Guy 3 pa rin eh.
Flor: Tama yan. Wag muna.
Me: Onaman. Hanggat love ko pa yun di pa.
Flor: Therefore, feeling ko hindi ka na magboboyfriend nyan.
Me: Ay bwisit. Thanks sa moral support ah.

HAHAHA! Napakasabaw lang. :))

Ok. I'm so stubborn and I need a frustration-management training. Or maybe it's just the time of the month.

PERO NAKAKAINIS. AYOKO PA RIN MAG-UNIFORM!:(

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I JUST HAVE TO LET THIS OUT KASI NAIIRITA TALAGA KO:

CAN I JUST SAY NA AYOKO MAG-UNIFORM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! HINDI NA KO NATUTUWA! UNA, LILIPAT KAMI SA PART OF THE FORT FAR FAR AWAY FROM CIVILIZATION AND THEN UNIFORM?!?! THE HECK. PFFFT. I SHALL RESIGN.

If you're not willing to risk it all, then you don't want it bad enough.

Joan's Despedida Dinner

I'm not getting married yet nor inlove (well still kind of I guess) but I found myself loving the video below and reading an article entitled "7 signs of true love" which I found in Yahoo. Very very very inspiring. I'm such a hopeless romantic I guess. Nyahaha!

I miss YOU...:(

Super Like!:)

His version...


http://kunwaremakata.wordpress.com/2012/04/26/ligawanblues/

Her version...


http://www.facebook.com/notes/tin-torres/fruits-of-surrender-/10150768928566608


Awww. I'm inspired. <3

Who the heck is Fatty?!?

It's my first time to try Happy Lemon and the cashier spelled my name wroooooong. Booyeah! Nakakatawa yung spelling.. Mukha ba kong mataba sa paningin niya? >.<

P.S. Malabo sa pic pero it's spelled as F-A-T-T-Y

Lookie!:)

Mucho mucho thank you for these pets (you know who you are..hehe! someday I'll let you read my blog mwahaha.) They'll come in handy especially at night ;)

I'm praying for someone right now...

I hope he'll be okay.

Much as I wanted to ask how he was doing, I think it will be better if I'll just pray for his fast recovery.

It's time to kiss NOT-dating goodbye...

"Single and not so excited to mingle"
It’s been more than four months since I stopped dating. I’ve been exclusively dating a special guy late last year and well…sadly, things didn’t work out. Mygulay patty lagi na lang?! It was such a “bad breakup”. So bad that I was so emotionally drained, so traumatized and so freakiiiiiing frustrated and depressed. Really it was more than bad. It was worst. Bad is an understatement. Remember my previous post about hang-ups and hangovers? I tried doing that again but this time, nothing worked for me! Ganun kalala. Feeling ko nga B-I-N-G-O na ko sa hurt department eh. Not even chocolates can make me feel better (I've been eating chocolates almost everyday pero wala, I just turned diabetic haha!) I may be kengkoy and sabaw goofball most of the times, but I've had my (un)fair share of disappointments and heartbreaks.  It was just those moments that I’m not inspired to get up from my bed, not in the mood to eat or do anything,  not in the mood to talk or see other people even my own set of friends. I’ve been totally aloof to everyone! Occasionally, I’ll have some breakdowns. It was such a not so good feeling at all.

Since then I stopped dating. There were some guys who expressed their intentions but because I was just as hurt and I wasn’t really ready to open myself again, I politely turned them down. It wasn't because I think highly of myself or I suddenly turned to be a man-hater. It wasn't just the right time for me. Most of the guys who ask me out are real fine gentleman but I just don’t want to invest emotions again and I don’t want to waste their time..and more importantly, my time. I’m not the kind of paasa type. I feel that I needed to heal first before I can date anyone. Honestly, no amount of admirers, compliments or whatsoever can make me feel good about myself. For any single girl, this would be a dream scenario - to suddenly feel so "in-demand" and wanted, it was like having a note posted on your forehead that says "I'M SINGLE". It may be an enviable position to be in, but to tell you the truth, it was not really a happy place. A lot of my friends are telling me why don’t I give myself another chance to date again. Some would say it will fasten up my "recovery" from the hurt I went through but I’ll just tell them I’m not ready. I don’t want to just because I don’t want to. It’s like saying “It’s me.It’s not them.”. I wanted time to be with me, myself and I... Most of all, I needed time to be with God. 

Recently, I just declined an invitation from someone to go out for a date. I was telling that to my friend and she said, “Ikaw na talaga!! Bakit na naman? Okay naman siya ah. Lahat na lang ng lalake inayawan mo.” I jokingly told her “Eh wala lang. Ayoko lang. I don't want to date. Ayoko nga sa mga lalake. Jerk sila lahat.” She said “That’s the problem with you, nag generalize ka na naman. Why don’t you give the guy a chance...more importantly why don’t you give yourself a chance? Di ko naman sinabi magboyfriend ka na no. Kung ayaw m sakanya eh di wag, at least nagbigay ka ng chance kesa wala”   That’s when it hit me. Chances. Second chances. Even third chances. I always tell people I’m generous in giving chances.  I really am until now...kasi naman when you’ve been sooo hurt in the past, you tend to guard your heart more to the extent that you are not anymore giving people chances, you tend to be selfish to them and to yourself. I think it's okay to preserve yourself but you have to know what is just and what is right. Plus, just because one or two people hurt you in the past, it doesn't mean all of them are like that. It's always and will always be right thing to see the goodness in people. 

So starting today, I think I should stop being harsh to myself. As one friend told me, "Yup it might be harder pero I'm sure you learned a lot from it . You'll be a better person, a better friend and a better partner when that right person comes your way. He's on the way and believe me, he's getting where you are as fast as he can." So awe-inspiring. Hmmmm...so am I ready to date? Not really, but I can try.:)

Awww Shweeeeet:)

I love blog-hopping. I also love surprises and giving surprises. While doing a random fb wall-hopping, I saw this post on my friend's wall. While I was reading the post, my thought bubble reads "aaaaaaawwwww all for love".

http://tinacariaga.wordpress.com/2012/05/01/the-craziest-thing-ive-done-for-love-so-far/

Hmmm, which made me think "What's the craziest thing I've done for love?!" Parang lahat kasi crazy eh. Nyahaha! Iisip ako ng PINAKA. Parang wala pa kasi akong kalevel ng ganyan. :p Though I must admit, I love doing "random sweet (well, for me) gestures" for the person I love.

This Song Makes Me Sad

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d9NF2edxy-M