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Weekend overrrrr. I'm so happy I can't help smiling. :) I just want to put into writing that I had the BEST Friday for November so far. :) And I'll try (oh no here I go again haha!) to blog about it sooon. I'm so sleepy right now and I can't think. Nyahaha!

few thoughts:

* I don't like Facebook anymore. Strangers keep on adding me as a friend and I don't have any idea who they are! When I look at their walls, I sense that they are just new accounts. Sorry but I don't add strangers. :\

* Ang sarap maghohol. lol.

* I'm sleepy. And it's only 9pm.

On hangups and hangovers

It's been exactly a year ago, more or less, since I've become "officially single". Haha! I love the freedom and the "i-don't-care-and-no-one-will-care-if-I-party-all-night" perks that come with it. (But of course, I still do wish I have this someone special. Well, there's someone special, but I mean 'official someone special' Haha) Honestly? I've moved on. Definitely. Thanks to those who've been there for me during what I considered the lowest point of my 2010. I really don't know what to do if not for them. It's true that you'll find your true friends when you're really down and not when you're happy.

Hmmm... So what exactly did I do to move on? I'm not a love guru or a therapist or whatever. It took me almost 3 months before I've accepted the fact, almost 4 months before I regained my normal self and almost 8 months before I can honestly and sincerely say that I'm okay. I guess I should have applied the "3-month-rule" so I haven't wasted my time but oh well. Haha! Based on my experience, below are some things I did that help me forget, or at least lessen the pain I felt during that time. Swear. Healing a broken heart is not a joke. It really takes a LOT of effort on your part. And I believe that God helps those people who help themselves. So, I helped myself. Haha! How?

...I traveled

Whenever I had the chance, and especially the resources, I travel. I've never been into so many places before until now. I still got a lot of traveling to do and a lot of places to visit but hey, it's a start. Nothing beats the feeling of having to go to unfamiliar places. The best so far was when I went to China!!!

October 2010 - La Union with Gabby and Elvie

October 2010 - at Vigan

January 2011 - Laguna with Towers Watson peeps

March 2011 - Bird's Nest, Beijing China with Keith

March 2011 - at Great Wall of China

March 2011 - with Andrew and Keith at Beijing, China

May 2011 - Nuvali Laguna with May, Char and Arianne

July 2011 - Tagbilaran, Bohol with BMN

August 2011 - Boracay with Neri, Iyah and Ted

... I went out with friends

During the first few months after the heartbreak, I always go out with my friends. I make sure that my Fridays are occupied with random hangouts with them. I used to hate Fridays because I thought then that Fridays are equivalent to hanging out with your special someone, hence, Fridates. Thankfully, I have friends who I can call/text anytime for a rendezvous. I must thank them for keeping me sane during that time and putting up with my endless rants. I appreciate them so much for bearing with my "out-of-the-blue-I-suddenly-feel-sad" attitude. If I were them, I'd probably kill myself. Thank God I'm not them. Haha! Seriously, who would want to invite someone who suddenly cries unexpectedly? I'm such a kj before. Hahaha!

October 2010 - Tagaytay with Towers Watson peeps (so random I'm even wearing my office outfit haha)

November 2010 - Resortsworld with Stat peeps

November 2010 - with Keith, Vlad, Carlou at the Fort

December 2010 - surprise visit with Chariz and Arianne at Greenbelt1

December 2010 - Megamall with Alexis

February 2011 - BMN Dinner at Amici, Ayala Triangle

April 2011 - Sambokojin with Dent friends

April 2011 - overnight at Muntinlupa with HS friends

August 2011 - Robinsons' Galleria with Dave

October 2011 - BMN dinner at Bellini's Cubao

I'm sure there are lot more random lakads/gimiks I've made with my friends. I just don't bring my camera most of the time. Haha!

... I enrolled in a gym

Yep. That's right. I know it's weird because I'm not really fat. In fact I'm sooooo thin. But why did I enroll in the first place? Well, it's part of what you call "self improvement". LOL. I spent most of my spare time in the gym trying to look like I know what I'm doing. Haha! Sometimes, I join classes. And I realize, it's fun to do some belly dancing.

...I wrote down my feelings

but I didn't blog. I tried to limit my internet time because I have the tendency to stalk. Nyahaha. Hence, I wrote in my diary. I'm not a great writer though (the reason why I don't blog often). I just feel like putting my thoughts in a piece of paper hoping that after writing what I feel and after crushing that piece of paper (I know I know I'm insane haha), I'd be okay. Well, it helps, sometimes.

...I cried

No need to elaborate on that. Crying makes me feel better. There's something cathartic about having a good cry and "letting it all out". Plus, it is healthy. Okay, I look like I'm justifying my misery. Haha!

...I simply kept myself BUSY

In my attempt to keep my mind from thinking stupid things, I try my best to keep myself busy. I joined a club (Toastmasters club), joined our office cheerdance team and helped in our Kumon center. Apart from honing my "long-lost talents" (yehess kala mo meron), I gained new friends. It's pretty exciting actually because being the sociable that I am, I like meeting new people. I even considered enrolling for a yoga class! But well, after trying out yoga one time, I realized it's not for me. I'd die doing those stunts. Pfffft. Haha must learn how to be more flexible.

May 2011 - EWB Sportsfest

November 2011 - Toastmasters' Club Halloween Party

...I gave myself a makeover

The hair I've grown for two years...*poof* In a snap, they were all gone. I don't know what came into my mind during that time, but I just feel like chopping it off. Maybe because, my long hair holds memories (yeah he likes playing with my hair), or maybe because it's just a habit I do whenever I have "issues" with my lovelife (I do something with my hair when my lovelife's not so okay thus my curly and super short hair). I'm leaning towards the latter. Actually, I felt great after cutting my hair! It's the shortest hair I've sported in my life so far and it didn't hurt that I managed to carry it. But now, I want my looooong hair back. Haha! Okay, maybe I just have to wait few more months. Tsss.

from this loooong.. I cut it into this short.

Goodbye long hair :(

I also had my manicure and pedicure done, had some facial and all those girly things.

...I dated other people

I think this was the most stupid thing I did during my "healing period". Haha! I just dated anyone who asked me out. Some dates were great, some were boring and most of them, a failure. Not that I'm so choosy but then maybe because I was just not ready to open up my heart again during that time...so I appeared uninterested. Funny because one guy told me once "parang nabobore ka na sakin". Hahaha yeah. I found him boring. Sorry namaaaan.

...I prayed

Ahh the power of prayer. This is the time when I go to church just to..well..pass time. I talk to Him, cry to Him, well sometimes I yell at Him. Thank you Lord for healing me. :)

I'm sure there are a lot more things (sane and insane) that I did just to fix that broken heart. I'm glad I'm okay now. I've learned a lot from that experience and I'm sure the next time I'll fall inlove, it will be an awesome one. Haha Can't wait for that! I'm now ready to fall inlove again. ;)