*Posted last March 8 on my Facebook account. - This was a plea to my friends for prayers. My brother was in a 50-50 condition last March 6 and the doctors already managed us for the worst case scenario. As of now, I am thankful to God for giving my brother a second life. He is still confined at Lung Center and is still suffering from pneumothorax (collapsed lung) but he is already extubated. We are praying that he gets well soon. To you who is reading this, please still include my brother in your prayers. Thank you so much.

Posting this because we are holding on to God's promise that He is in control.

Since December 2019, my brother Julius, has been in and out of the hospital. We later found out that he has lymphoma, a cancer that begins in infection-fighting cells of the immune system (lymphocytes). He already had his first chemo session and we thought everything is going well. Unfortunately,he acquired pneumonia and is currently admitted in the hospital. As his ate, I can't help but be stressed out (stressed out is an understatement) with the situation. I've lost count of the times I cried and pleaded to God to save my brother's life. 😔 I know stress is not good with my current condition 'coz surprise - I am pregnant.My pregnancy has taken a backseat & we are very sorry baby, babawi talaga si mommy sayo. Thank you baby for making my pregnancy so easy.Alam kong lalaki kang strong dahil dito.

Inspite of the challenges our family is going through, God surprises us. During the past months, we have seen how good the Lord is by providing us families and friends who continously supports and cares for us.Thank you to those who pray with us whenever the situation makes it harder for us to pray. Thank you to our angels abroad - my Aunties & Uncles, my other brothers (Noli Louie Dave),to Ermitanio and Abanilla clan.Thank you to my doctor friends that I can easily ask whenever I have questions regarding my bro's condition. Thank you to those who constantly check on me - you know who you are and I really appreciate it. Sobra.Thank you to my husband & his fam for taking care of me whenever I forget to take care of myself.

If there is one thing I have learned during these trying times is to appreciate the little things. This ordeal made our family stronger.My brother Julius is still very positive despite his condition.

I end this post by kindly requesting everyone to pray for my brother (Julius Ermitanio), for my family and for all the medical staff attending to my brother. We really need prayer warriors right now dahil yun talaga ang pinanghahawakan namin. I believe in the power of collective prayer. I believe God will hear our prayers. Maraming salamat po and God bless us all.

Unknown

It has been what? 7 years? 6 years? since I was able to properly write my thoughts online. A lot HAS happened -- I got engaged, got married, got a new job, our family went through a storm, now I am pregnant. And today, I just want to immortalize that we have been on quarantine since March 16. I want to document the feeling of anxiousness, frustration and sadnesss so that when we return to our "normal" life, I will be more appreciative. Honestly, my thoughts are jumbled. I don't know where to start so pardon me for my grammatical errors and incoherence.

Pano nga ba sisimulan 'to? Maybe in the following days (should I be able to battle my laziness), I will be able to expound. But for now, I just want to write that I am feeling melancholic for everything that is happening - My brother is still in the hospital and this COVID crisis is making me anxious.

Lord, please heal our land.

Yay!!!!! Google finally allowed me to retrieve my account! I can now go back to blogging. 😊

Due to old age, I have forgotten my password hahaha! And I have tried retrieving it but somehow, Google does not believe that I own this account. 😂

Just want to add this picture coz... Why not? LOL

Prenup Done :)

Wedding preps-panic attack!

Aaaaah! I'm a bridechilla. Literally. I never actually started to seriously plan the details of my wedding, well, first because I'm not detail-oriented. Oh yeah, I am! But being a girl, it's actually hard to decide on what I really really want for my wedding. Next, we are on a budget  NO we're more of practical. Sure, this is once in a lifetime event and we want only the best. However, being tied to a budget is really hard. If I had only all the money in the world, I'd choose the BEST suppliers without batting an eyelash. But I don't want to start married life poor (if you know what I mean). And third, I just wanted to be married to the love of my life peacefully. Why is wedding planning so stressful for me? Hahaha! But it's a kind of stress I'd welcome in my life.

So as I was saying. I'm a bridechilla. For the past months since I got engaged, I haven't sat down on the nitty-gritty details. I have booked all the major suppliers that I needed (I think!). And after that, I'd been procrastinating, just making the most of our engagement period. Hahaha! Until NOW. I suddenly realized, April is about to end. Ack ack ack! Need to seriously start planning the details.

Happy preps to us!

Bitterness Kills

Read this message from one of the FEAST Builders:

Have you ever seen a drug addict? He looks so skinny and haggard that it's like he walked out from the TV show, "The Walking Dead". This is because not only does shabu prevent you from eating for days, its chemicals poison your body.

Sadly, this is exactly what happens to people who don't forgive. Bitterness is a drug. As human beings, aside from physical food for our body, we all need love for pur soul. Bitterness not only prevents you from receiving love, it actually poisons your body.

I am sure you have heard this before: Chronic anger for someone is like holding a knife to stab your enemy -- except that you hold the blade instead of the handle. So each time youbstab, your enemy may not even feel it, but your hand is cut deep. The tighter you grasp, the harder you stab, the deeper you cut yourself. SO STOP CUTTING YOURSELF.

Do not wait for the other person to say sorry, or deserve forgiveness. If someone pushes you in deep swimming pool and you are drowning, do you say, "I will not start swimming unless you say sorry". Do you see how insane that is?

Sadly, that's what bitter people do. They wait for the offender to repent before they forgive them -- not understanding that they are already drowning in their bitterness and their anger is already ruining their lives.

Our founder, Bro. Bo often says, "You forgive not because they deserve to be forgiven but because you deserve to forgive. You deserve the inner happiness, spiritual freedom, and if I may add, the robust health that comes from forgiving others."

So today, as we ask the Lord for physical healing, let's also ask for him to helpnus remove any unforgiveness in our hearts.

Do not do it for the other person. Do it for yourself and stop hurting yourself.

You deserve it!

Be blessed.

Bro. Ped

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Yeah, I deserve it. :) After almost 5 years, I think it's time to truly and sincerely forgive.

The year that was

This 2017, I promised to update this blog more often (just what I have promised last New Years' but failed to do teehee). I hope to write about the best of my 2016 but I still have wedding-related errands to do, hence, I will do it on Thursday (yes, I have to be specific with my goals!). I will have time for myself for the next two weeks as I'll be starting my new work on the 16th! Hooray!

For the meantime, this picture sums up my 2016:

This year, I earned my MBA (after 3 years yay! 🎓), got engaged 💍, lost my engagement ring (and thankfully found it 😆), went to Vietnam with Avon ladies 💄, went to US 🇺🇸 (first out of the country trip with my fiancé), attended 4 weddings 👰🏻 and got a new job 💼. Certainly, 2016 is one for the books. 🙏 Thank you, Lord ❤️

Aside from those written above, fiance and I already bought a property. Aaack! I am so excited! Really, I am so blessed this year.