If you are wondering if I'm mad at you and if I have to choose only between a Yes or a No... I realized it is a YES.

YES, I'M MAD AT YOU BECAUSE I SHOULD BE.

It's a realization that you should know as well.Got it?

my forever crush :)

Sometimes, I feel that I should stop forgiving people.
Oh well.


After one week of being locked in a hotel for our company strategy planning, finally I can shout...Happy happy Friday!!!

The Toastmasters Midyear Conference was held last Saturday but I wasn't able to join because I have an important matter to do on that day. But I was really surprised when one of my favorite picture with boyfie was featured in the souvenir program. Yay! Here's the soft copy of the souvenir program :)

Boyfie calls me:
M: Baby, nandun yung picture natin sa souv prog ng TM.
Me: Ah talaga? Kumuha ka ng copy?
M: Yup. May soft copy uploaded in the TM site.
Me: Yeah, I saw Third posted the link. Matignan nga.
M: Gusto ko nga ipost sa wall ko eh. Kaya lang brownout samin.
Me: Huh? Eh di mag flashlight ka.
M: Huh? Eh di ko maopen yung laptop kasi lowbatt na.
Me: Ahhh. Wall. As in FB wall. Hahaha! Kala ko naman ipopost mo yung souvenir program sa pader ng room mo. Nyahaha!
M: Eeeew baby. You're so old school. Pader talaga naisip.
Me: Malay ko ba na ikaw yung tipong nagpopost ng posters sa pader. Parang high school lang.
M: Eeeew old school. Hahaha!

Love Appropriately

Learn to love appropriately.

You need to use your head and test your feelings so that your love is sincere and intelligent. Not sentimental gush.

Phil 1:9-10

You can actually read my mind

Throwback to July 2010: Never mistake my silence for weakness. Ever heard someone plan a murder out loud? Didn't think so. LOL. 

I've always been a transparent person. I seldom (or actually haven't) hide my feelings towards a person or to anything in particular. Whether I feel sad, happy, angry or stressed, it easily shows. I think it's a curse because I cannot, no matter how hard I try, pretend that I'm okay when I'm not. I don't know if it is because I have expressive eyes or I just don't like being pretentious. 

So one afternoon while having a discussion about a big project with my boss (and this project has been taking forever to actualize because of uhmm...nevermind. But to give a timeline on how 'forever' it has been, ever since I started working yun na ang ginagawa ko! Luh.), I wasn't able to hide how I feel towards it. I was explaining something to her when all of a sudden she said candidly, "Nakita ko yun. Nag-roroll ang eyes mo. Okay lang sakin yan pero pag nasa meeting tayo 'wag mo gagawin yan." She wasn't actually mad at me. But I just cannot hide that I feel really really frustrated on how things were going (plus I hate wasted efforts in all aspects of life lels). 

Okay, so my eyes have rolled 360 degrees. If I have to sum up how I really felt, baka gumulong na yung mata ko sa floor. It is involuntary I swear! Like I chose to let it behave that way. Nyahaha! Anyway, I think should try being less expressive. I'll practice how to do a poker face in front of a mirror.

So this fact makes me a bad liar. Because no matter what, it shows in my facial expressions the unearthed feelings I have. What I do is when a person asks me if I'm okay and I'm not -- I avoid looking at the person. On a sidenote, thank you for Facebook chat and Viber because if I have to lie about my feelings, it can be a good channel. Lol.

The good thing about this though is that when I'm extremely happy or excited, I don't need to say something. I have this automatic glow on my face. Gahhh. So when I'm inlove, halatang halata ako. Hahaha!