Love hurts, but not as much as not loving. :)

You don't have to be great in order to start.

But you have to start in order to be great.

Mondate

Last night, the boyfriend and I tried a new restaurant at the Fort, Shawarma Bros. Boyfriend told me we should try that since one of his officemates is a co-owner of that foodie place. The food is sooooo good! In fact, nabitin ako sa food. I recommend the Lamb/chicken steak rice with keema plate. *drools*

Since I've never been in the Fort for the longest time, I was amazed at how different it looked now. Ang saya saya! Isa na siyang food haven. I think we will be going to BGC more often for our dates. I like dragging boyfriend to places because he is not the type of guy who likes trying something new. 

While having our dinner, he suddenly blurted out, "Ah baby alam ko na!" while clapping his hands. I told him, "Wait, alam ko yan sasabihin mo. Wag ka magsalita." He said, "Oh sige nga, ano sasabihin ko?" "Turtle pie!!!" (I was referring to my favorite cake at Coffee Bean). He was like, "Ba..by... kinikilabutan ako sayo... Pano mo naisip na yun ang sasabihin ko?" I was laughing hard. Actually, I was surprised as well. It just occurred to me that he's thinking of a place where we can have our dessert. "So yun nga talaga iniisip mo? Turtle pie?" He said, "Oo. Yun talaga. Hahaha papakasalan na nga kita. Grabe ka! Pano mo naiisip yun" I said casually, "Mag ingat ka nababasa ko na iniisip mo. Wahahaha!" He asked, "Bat ganyan kayong mga babae? Ang galing niyo magbasa ng isip!" Oh well. Hahaha! But we ended up having a massage at Ton ton instead of eating turtle pie at CBTL.

It's fun finishing each other's sentences. It wasn't the first time it happened and there were also times that he was able to read my mind. Mas madalas nga lang na ako yung magaling bumasa. Hehehe...I've found my soulmate.

Three years ago, one of my HS bestfriends got married and I was her maid of honor. During the reception, I was so busy assisting the guests and sadly, I wasn't able to join the highlight of the reception -- the bouquet throwing. After the event, I told the boyfriend this "I was so busy, too bad I wasn't able to join the bouquet throwing. And besides, I couldn't find you." (He was also invited but I lost sight of him because I'm busy with MOH duties Haha!). He responded, "Don't worry baby, we'll have that in our own wedding. You'll be one throwing the bouquet and I'll be throwing the panty". I was shocked -- "Panty????? Anong panty???" He said as a matter of factly, "Di ba? Yung kinukuha ng groom sa bride tas binabato?". HAHAHA! I almost died. I gave him a lecture on that and he told me he really doesn't pay attention during wedding receptions. Lol. Fiiine. That conversation made me realize that we are not yet ready to get married. C'mon, who wants to get married if your underwear will be thrown during the reception??!!? 

Every time I look at my Facebook newsfeed, it's filled with stories like friends getting engaged, friends getting married, friends giving birth and me getting awesome (lels). A lot of times during reunions, people would ask me "So when are you getting married?" and I most of the time I would answer "In a near distant future." Haha! I believe that before tying the knot, 3 basic things are important:

1. You are getting married for the right reasons.

When my single friends would tell me "Gusto ko na ikasal", I ask them why. It's very important that a person should be marrying for the right reasons. Why bother getting involved with someone for a long period of time? It's like enrolling in a freshman year and not planning to graduate. 

2. You know your partner's dark secrets... and you've accepted it.

My boyfriend's dark secret is... well it's a secret. Lol. But seriously, in any relationship acceptance and compromise are very important. I've read this one in markmanson.net: The artist Alex Grey once said, "True love is when two people's pathologies complement one another's". Love is, by definition, crazy and irrational. And the best love works when our irrationalities complement one another and our flaws enamor one another. It may be our perfections that attract one another but it's our imperfections that decide whether we stay together or not. I think the purpose of love is to practice the loving. No person is going to be a hundred percent perfect anyway, so learn to appreciate people for what they have to offer.

3. You have the funds.

Money is not everything, but I admit that it's important. I'm not talking about the money for the wedding only but for the days after the wedding. Starting a family is not an easy task and being financially stable makes it a little easier.

It's true that when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as possible. And in my case, I want it as soon as possible. I think I'm okay with first two items above and I'm now building 3. 

Kepkep

I sat across Marion at a restaurant last night, looking like a giddy kid who just had her favorite dessert. I felt that I haven't seen him for months, when in fact it's only been days. I've been in an emotional rollercoaster for the past weeks and I needed someone who will see through me and clear my head. So I decided to see my bestfriend. When he saw me, he was tired but he managed to give me a smile. He hugged me and it was the best feeling in the world. He gave me a kiss on the cheek and asked me, "Kumusta?" to which I replied "K lang". He laughed at my reply. He knows I'm not my usual self. When we sat over dinner, I told him that I needed to say something. He looked at me in the eye and listened to everything that I said. I apologized for what I said and he casually replied, "Okay lang yan baby. I understand you." I'm not going into details on everything but after the "talk", I'm back to my (ab)normal self again. Thank you bestfriend for making everything so light and easy for me. You always know what to do. :)

This is soooooo cute... and true :)

Happy Monday!

Q&A

Some random questions (that stuck in my mind 'coz I know I could have answered it better) asked to me by friends, office mates, random people, chismosas (lols) and my answers. Not really my exact answers but those were my thoughts during that time. I could have expounded on it but tinatamad ako mag-isip. So I'm writing here what I should have answered.

Are you alright? 
My answer: "Yes. I'm good."
My mind: Hindi talaga.

Mukha kang hindi okay. I mean are you emotionally okay? 
My answer: "Bakit mukha ba kong emotionally unstable ngayon???" o.O
My mind: "Halata bang emotionally unstable ako ngayon??"

How can I make a girl love me?
My answer: "Be nice to her, be a gentleman, be a good conversationalist, make her laugh a lot. Yan lang naiisip ko for me pero baka iba iba naman bawat babae. So scrap mo na yan. Hahaha! Pero seriously, don't be a jerk."
My mind: Same as above. But I wanted to add this "Be consistent. Consistency is the key para mahalin ka niya boy! But then it still depends on the girl"

Do you believe in love at first sight?
My answer: "NO! I'm the type na nahuhulog. saklap 'no? Haha!"
My mind: "Hmm.. sa totoo lang hindi. Pero I know this is weird, but I already know during my first meeting with a guy if magiging boyfriend or magkakaron kami ng something in the future. It's as if at the start may lukso na ng dugo landi. Choz. Hahaha! Basta nalalaman ko na yun agad agad. I don't know if that counts as love at first sight. Nalalaman ko lang ah, pero it takes process talaga bago ko ma-fall.

Kayo pa ba?
My answer: "Haha oonaman. Minsan gusto ko na maniwala sa forever."
My mind: "Yes! Of course! Ano bang tanong yan."

Regret mo ba na we took a risk?
My answer: "Honestly, di naman kasi sumaya naman ako nun per niregret ko lang na nagfall ako ng sobra."
My mind: "Honestly, di naman. Masaya naman ako nun pero superficial lang kasi nararamdaman ko na hindi mo naman ako kaya mahalin talaga. Feel ko nagstay ka lang for convenience. Malungkot ka tapos may nagpasaya sayo, kaya andyan ka. Pero di mo naman talaga tnry ako na mahalin. Prove me I'm wrong."

Namiss mo ko?
My answer: "Oo sobra!"
My mind: "YES! YES! YES! Wag ka na aalis sa tabi ko please?"

Do you think I can handle it?
My answer: "Yes, I'll handle it. I'll try my best."
My mind: "Yes, I'll handle it. As it I have a choice. Lol"

Can I have your number? I want to be your textmate, miss.
My answer: "No. Sorry I don't give my number to strangers"
My mind: "No. Sorry I don't give my number to strangers. At textmate talaga??? Uso pa ba yun? Fb na lang! Lol"

Make time please? please? please?
My answer: "I'll try. Promise"
My mind: "Time? What time? But then if it's really important, I'll make time"

Relationship or career?
My answer: "Relationship"
My mind: "I value and put relationships first. Nobody remembers powerpoint presentations during funeral."

Selosa ka ba?
My answer: Slight. Hehe..
My mind: Selosa ko at the start of the relationship at hindi ko alam kung bakit. I think siguro nagaadjust pa ko and hindi pa masyado deep ang level of trust. Pero after 6 months, hindi na talaga. Haha mejo confident kasi ako sa ganda at skillz ko. Lol.

Marami pa rin nagpapapicture sakanya?
My answer: "Oo no. Artista ang peg. Haha! Pero bayaan mo sila, di naman na ko affected ngayon."
My mind: "Oo no. Artista ang peg. Haha! Pero bayaan mo sila, di naman na ko affected ngayon. They can look but don't they dare touch. Hahaha!"

Bakit ang bango mo?
My answer: "Sorry pinagpapawisan ako."
My mind: "Hello?!? gugustuhin mo ba na mabaho ako. Hahaha! "

Patch, balita ko may nagkakagusto sayo dito ah. Totoo ba?
My answer: "Mads, tama ang balita mo."
My mind: "Mads, nagulat ka pa ba? Choz. Hindi ko alam. Malay ko."